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Sanguine

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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So here I stand, trying to gather up the scarlet threads of life, to weave them into a pattern, to find my way through this sanguine labyrinth of passion, through which I was wondering, I tread so carefully, tip toe around my dreams, before they break like brittle weak winter leaves underneath my feet. Don’t you tread on my dreams. I ask questions and no one truly answers me, my dreams have become my reality, I feel safer here where the truth hides and lies cannot find me. There would be no captive, if there were no escape, there would be no love, if there were no pain. Placed in a dark world, only to find the light again. Hope calls my name, if it is not found, I’ll blame myself until there is no one else left to blame. Render me useless, expected to do this, all alone. To give my heart, my hands and my soul, only for you, only for you to turn and abuse them. Now my only solution is to gain a confession before I truly feel absolution. Time spent stagnant with eyes of fire, your pictures burn, as my lungs ache and my heart falls tired, your truths have expired, here lays the remains of a man who fell in love with a liar.

Changes

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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Everything will change, the place where your possessions used to lay, the comfort of your words you used to say, your face before your beauty decays, the safety of your arms where I used to stay. Nothing stays the same, your gold will wither into grey, your roses will blossom and fade away, not everything we love grows with age, that’s why we remember and never forget the way things used to be.

Bridges
Written by Adam Woroniecki & Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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The confusion was around me, like nothing ever had become, of understanding, faces, names, and just walking down the path, to understand life isn’t there. Thrown to pieces, a broken youth, full of flaws that can’t describe. I’m lost, so please help me find someone to be there, even though there’s no wind or rain, or that rains is fear. I can’t even describe this shame, if I could have an escape, I’d throw away this pain. But it’s just another day, going by, without realizing things have changed. Everything’s the same.
So the day has come and passed away, the sun has set and I am left here to remain. Stranded alone in my own mind waiting for things to change, trying hard to accept the fact nothing good in this life stays the same. So it’s no wonder why I prefer to walk these streets alone at night, there is nothing but silence in the air tonight, these streets are never as crowded as the hallways in my mind. Too many thoughts to regress on, to many bridges left to burn that I’d rather leave behind. Walking down familiar pavements I once stumbled down but now I’m suddenly afraid. I see one shadow chasing me, and another running away. It must be the wrongs and rights of my personality. Can’t even run away, there is never a right or wrong choice to make.
I know there isn’t much in life to offer me, I thought there wasn’t there for me to see, and there you are, staring back at me, the girl I used to know. I’ve lost everything, I used to know, and nothing feels the same. I want to know why, your not in my life, anymore, your just a ghost, following me to the past. Please wake up, because I can hear you screaming, but your tounges soft and your not breathing, if only this pain could help healing. I would fall under your grace, because I know it hurts for me and you to be alone, and your not with your hearts gone cold. Lost another past, a victim of love, is all I can say this will end, as soon as I know, when to defend everything in my soul. I can’t help but hate this situation, I can’t move, I’m so insecure, but that’s what you’ve made me, and I hate you because of that 
 I’m finding it, so hard to let go, I’m trying but, I can’t help but hold on. So hold my hand and hold me close, and for one last time, look me in the eyes, and tell me this really is, goodbye.       

Bridges

Written by Adam Woroniecki & Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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The confusion was around me, like nothing ever had become, of understanding, faces, names, and just walking down the path, to understand life isn’t there. Thrown to pieces, a broken youth, full of flaws that can’t describe. I’m lost, so please help me find someone to be there, even though there’s no wind or rain, or that rains is fear. I can’t even describe this shame, if I could have an escape, I’d throw away this pain. But it’s just another day, going by, without realizing things have changed. Everything’s the same.

So the day has come and passed away, the sun has set and I am left here to remain. Stranded alone in my own mind waiting for things to change, trying hard to accept the fact nothing good in this life stays the same. So it’s no wonder why I prefer to walk these streets alone at night, there is nothing but silence in the air tonight, these streets are never as crowded as the hallways in my mind. Too many thoughts to regress on, to many bridges left to burn that I’d rather leave behind. Walking down familiar pavements I once stumbled down but now I’m suddenly afraid. I see one shadow chasing me, and another running away. It must be the wrongs and rights of my personality. Can’t even run away, there is never a right or wrong choice to make.

I know there isn’t much in life to offer me, I thought there wasn’t there for me to see, and there you are, staring back at me, the girl I used to know. I’ve lost everything, I used to know, and nothing feels the same. I want to know why, your not in my life, anymore, your just a ghost, following me to the past. Please wake up, because I can hear you screaming, but your tounges soft and your not breathing, if only this pain could help healing. I would fall under your grace, because I know it hurts for me and you to be alone, and your not with your hearts gone cold. Lost another past, a victim of love, is all I can say this will end, as soon as I know, when to defend everything in my soul. I can’t help but hate this situation, I can’t move, I’m so insecure, but that’s what you’ve made me, and I hate you because of that 

 I’m finding it, so hard to let go, I’m trying but, I can’t help but hold on. So hold my hand and hold me close, and for one last time, look me in the eyes, and tell me this really is, goodbye.       

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban & Adam Woroniecki
Blank Screens & Empty Streets
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Staring at a blank screen, that epitomizes me. I’m staring at the ground, with my friends staring back around. Reality is near, and I can smell the consequence of the future. But nothing can remind me, of what’s going to follow. I stared at the faces of people trying to reach perfection, but ended up in a shallow grave, four foot under, with a note on my chest. “It wasn’t meant to be”. And everything is downhill from here, I can sense it. Never give up faith, but I never had it in the first place, I never had closure. I never thought of life so shallow. 
Thoughtless and empty minds, long walks, day dreams at night, a bottle in his left hand, a photograph of you in his right always clenched tight, regressing thoughts prays on his mind, regretting all the mistakes he made as he clings his sheets at night. All past truths set to expire, regressing memories of falling in love with liars. One hand in his pocket, one hand over his heart, both as empty as eachother, looking for a direction in life with no signs of where to start. Wishing for your wings to lift me up, this anchor of loss holds me down, I’ve become so weak to fight, falling asleep with this bitter emptiness to keep me company on these cold dark nights.
He thought of his own mind, was a ticking time bomb in disguise, I saw him fall backwards, I tried to help him back to life. With a ciggerete in one hand, and a heart played so many times. Coming to terms with love loss, and whatever his heart desired. He ran a thousand miles, through woods, acres full of ghosts, haunting and betraying, he never knew the worst. The ending is near, I can smell it on my footsteps, but to start with , I’m not afraid, of this cliched overload, dramatic charade. I’ll wait for the ending, but I’m not near, but yet so far. I think I’m falling down, and repeating what was in the past, I thought this pain wouldn’t last.

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban & Adam Woroniecki

Blank Screens & Empty Streets

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Staring at a blank screen, that epitomizes me. I’m staring at the ground, with my friends staring back around. Reality is near, and I can smell the consequence of the future. But nothing can remind me, of what’s going to follow. I stared at the faces of people trying to reach perfection, but ended up in a shallow grave, four foot under, with a note on my chest. “It wasn’t meant to be”. And everything is downhill from here, I can sense it. Never give up faith, but I never had it in the first place, I never had closure. I never thought of life so shallow. 

Thoughtless and empty minds, long walks, day dreams at night, a bottle in his left hand, a photograph of you in his right always clenched tight, regressing thoughts prays on his mind, regretting all the mistakes he made as he clings his sheets at night. All past truths set to expire, regressing memories of falling in love with liars. One hand in his pocket, one hand over his heart, both as empty as eachother, looking for a direction in life with no signs of where to start. Wishing for your wings to lift me up, this anchor of loss holds me down, I’ve become so weak to fight, falling asleep with this bitter emptiness to keep me company on these cold dark nights.

He thought of his own mind, was a ticking time bomb in disguise, I saw him fall backwards, I tried to help him back to life. With a ciggerete in one hand, and a heart played so many times. Coming to terms with love loss, and whatever his heart desired. He ran a thousand miles, through woods, acres full of ghosts, haunting and betraying, he never knew the worst. The ending is near, I can smell it on my footsteps, but to start with , I’m not afraid, of this cliched overload, dramatic charade. I’ll wait for the ending, but I’m not near, but yet so far. I think I’m falling down, and repeating what was in the past, I thought this pain wouldn’t last.

‘November Nights’
Written by: Mark Mitzey Grabban
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I’ve done all I can, It’s so cruel you’ll never know how hard I tried,Sunday, 21st, a cold november night, I fought so hard inside,To watch you walk away from me, to have you leave my side,I’ve done it once, I’ve died inside, we re found our love, you let me call you mine,It’s not fair, you’re still far to scared, to trust me again,But this is eternal love, this love is forever,And I will sit and wait for you and i will pretend,For all this time that I’ve been fine, I’ve been doing okay, without you,It’s not lying to you, it’s lying to myself that’s only hurting me,Now how do I go through life with your memory always haunting me?Pathetic because I’d wait forever, you said you’d stay forever,I sit and watch as my eyes blur up, you know exactly what I mean,Staring at a blank screen, waiting to light up,Wishing it was your name calling out to me,Longing to hear your voice to comfort me,If I’m honest a real smile would convince myself I’m still alive,Still no word, I’ve flooded this room tonight, but after I can see with these eyes,Once again, things become clear, but you’re not there staring back at me.So paint me from your memory, turn me into something beautiful.Running away, I’m heading for the sun, I’ve spent to long drowning in this rain,My lungs are aching, I’m breaking through the clouds with this fading pain,Your lips were the gift to help me breathe and make my heart beat,But would it of always been to late to save me?By the time you realised I needed you so much just to hold me.The silence is singing, I hear your voice when there is no sound,All this time to regret, it’s echoing now, why does this clock tick so loud?And in that moment I lost all care for time,When I heard those words my world froze in my mind,“I miss you and you know i’ll always come back to you”It filled me up with hope, hope that one day again I’ll call you mine,I dream of you as an angel who keeps finding me and never leaves me behind,And with the wind at our backs, one day, together, we will forever climb and climb.
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Still find it hard to read through this without a tear falling from my eye :/ This day meant so much to me. I miss you. 

‘November Nights

Written by: Mark Mitzey Grabban

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I’ve done all I can, It’s so cruel you’ll never know how hard I tried,
Sunday, 21st, a cold november night, I fought so hard inside,
To watch you walk away from me, to have you leave my side,
I’ve done it once, I’ve died inside, we re found our love, you let me call you mine,
It’s not fair, you’re still far to scared, to trust me again,
But this is eternal love, this love is forever,
And I will sit and wait for you and i will pretend,
For all this time that I’ve been fine, I’ve been doing okay, without you,
It’s not lying to you, it’s lying to myself that’s only hurting me,
Now how do I go through life with your memory always haunting me?
Pathetic because I’d wait forever, you said you’d stay forever,
I sit and watch as my eyes blur up, you know exactly what I mean,
Staring at a blank screen, waiting to light up,
Wishing it was your name calling out to me,
Longing to hear your voice to comfort me,
If I’m honest a real smile would convince myself I’m still alive,
Still no word, I’ve flooded this room tonight, but after I can see with these eyes,
Once again, things become clear, but you’re not there staring back at me.
So paint me from your memory, turn me into something beautiful.
Running away, I’m heading for the sun, I’ve spent to long drowning in this rain,
My lungs are aching, I’m breaking through the clouds with this fading pain,
Your lips were the gift to help me breathe and make my heart beat,
But would it of always been to late to save me?
By the time you realised I needed you so much just to hold me.
The silence is singing, I hear your voice when there is no sound,
All this time to regret, it’s echoing now, why does this clock tick so loud?
And in that moment I lost all care for time,
When I heard those words my world froze in my mind,
“I miss you and you know i’ll always come back to you”
It filled me up with hope, hope that one day again I’ll call you mine,
I dream of you as an angel who keeps finding me and never leaves me behind,
And with the wind at our backs, one day, together, we will forever climb and climb.

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Still find it hard to read through this without a tear falling from my eye :/ This day meant so much to me. I miss you. 

Dorian Gray
Lyrics written by: Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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‘A dream of form in days of thought’ A lifetime of insecurity braved from my flaws,Visions of perfections locked behind doors,Opened by your hand, an introduction to something beautiful,A silence bar my heart’s race, as I no longer hide my shame,I look up as your beauty brings a world of all the light to my face,I pray this moment will never end, I hope this feeling will forever remain,I could wish for time to collapse if it meant I’d never see your face again,Instead I’ll cherish every second, and burn out with the highest flame,If we do not keep love burning, our hearts will always fade away,It’s this moment I realise there are always weights to carry such as pain,Unable to bear the burden of your beauty, my jealousy and envy begins to cry, But cowering away once again, my memories reminds me and I realise,This beauty at least is only skin deep, you are but an empty prize,I’ve been convinced so easily before, I’m a sucker for betryal and lies,But I refuse to fall again, I shall not concede and follow their demise,‘I will not bare my soul to their shallow prying eyes,’All they understand is vanity and arrogance as a goal to lead their lives,I will keep my heart locked away, and the mistakes once made are now left behind,I realise now any words are just decoration to charm your vanity inside.

Dorian Gray

Lyrics written by: Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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‘A dream of form in days of thought’ 
A lifetime of insecurity braved from my flaws,
Visions of perfections locked behind doors,
Opened by your hand, an introduction to something beautiful,
A silence bar my heart’s race, as I no longer hide my shame,
I look up as your beauty brings a world of all the light to my face,
I pray this moment will never end, I hope this feeling will forever remain,
I could wish for time to collapse if it meant I’d never see your face again,
Instead I’ll cherish every second, and burn out with the highest flame,
If we do not keep love burning, our hearts will always fade away,
It’s this moment I realise there are always weights to carry such as pain,
Unable to bear the burden of your beauty, my jealousy and envy begins to cry, 
But cowering away once again, my memories reminds me and I realise,
This beauty at least is only skin deep, you are but an empty prize,
I’ve been convinced so easily before, I’m a sucker for betryal and lies,
But I refuse to fall again, I shall not concede and follow their demise,
‘I will not bare my soul to their shallow prying eyes,’
All they understand is vanity and arrogance as a goal to lead their lives,
I will keep my heart locked away, and the mistakes once made are now left behind,
I realise now any words are just decoration to charm your vanity inside.

Transcendence
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This love guides me back to the shore, the sun no longer shines apon the waves anymore, I’ve been lost for so long, I’ve been found waiting in the dark, and now I am sure, These eyes had never seen a face so beautiful before, the glistening of your eyes, of your lips, made my heart sink to the floor, since our lips met, roses blossom and no longer wither anymore, Old feelings replaced, gone, forgotten, new feelings felt, met, I’ve never been graced with before. No night time city skylines, sunsets or sunrises could ever be as beautiful as your eyes. The way these eyes align, it’s always a first time, I’ve fallen and I’ll find this feeling will never die. For everytime you are by my side, I know in my heart, you’ll stay with me tonight, leave for a while, You’ll always return to these arms, return to this smile, this will never be the last time, this love will last a life time.

Transcendence

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This love guides me back to the shore, the sun no longer shines apon the waves anymore, I’ve been lost for so long, I’ve been found waiting in the dark, and now I am sure, These eyes had never seen a face so beautiful before, the glistening of your eyes, of your lips, made my heart sink to the floor, since our lips met, roses blossom and no longer wither anymore, Old feelings replaced, gone, forgotten, new feelings felt, met, I’ve never been graced with before. No night time city skylines, sunsets or sunrises could ever be as beautiful as your eyes. The way these eyes align, it’s always a first time, I’ve fallen and I’ll find this feeling will never die. For everytime you are by my side, I know in my heart, you’ll stay with me tonight, leave for a while, You’ll always return to these arms, return to this smile, this will never be the last time, this love will last a life time.

Refusal 
Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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Wasted time, wasting away, wishing your memory would not stay, wishing I could move away, why does everything broken still remain? 2 years have come to this day, I never thought back then, I’d still feel so empty. I’ve become a bitter man, dragging myself along the bottom, hoping on your downfall, Losing all sense of reality, feeling alone when I have company, familiar faces with sympathy mean nothing to me, I don’t want your pity, you’ll always be happier than I’ll ever be, I’m living for endless dreams, all hope has left home, my future has been put to sleep. My smile is in denial, my heart is in exile. I’m so sorry, I can’t bring you closer, I still need my closure, please don’t reach out your hand, I have no room left for your heart to land. 

Refusal 

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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Wasted time, wasting away, wishing your memory would not stay, wishing I could move away, why does everything broken still remain? 2 years have come to this day, I never thought back then, I’d still feel so empty. I’ve become a bitter man, dragging myself along the bottom, hoping on your downfall, Losing all sense of reality, feeling alone when I have company, familiar faces with sympathy mean nothing to me, I don’t want your pity, you’ll always be happier than I’ll ever be, I’m living for endless dreams, all hope has left home, my future has been put to sleep. My smile is in denial, my heart is in exile. I’m so sorry, I can’t bring you closer, I still need my closure, please don’t reach out your hand, I have no room left for your heart to land. 

Infatuation
Lyrics written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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I am never alone, I have regret to keep me company, I still feel your breath when the wind does not blow. The loss of your love, your warm embrace that wrapped it’s arms around my heart and soul, this weight of loss will only grow. I wake up with heavy eyes and a haunted mind, the rain falls hard from unforgiving skies, reminders just crashing on my window, I’m lost for words, my hands are shaking without nothing to hold, and the cold keeps shivering through my bones. There is no love left within a man standing alone with a heart that has sunk and froze. I can’t stop myself from shaking, I can’t stop my heart from aching. It’s so tough, why am I still in love? I question everyday before my tired mind lays down to sleep, every night I close my eyes, I see your face, you’re in my heart, you’re in my dreams, you are forever, haunting me. Now I see why you did the things you did, you still gave me the best, still make me feel as if there will never be anyone else again, but it’s not the same, your kiss has changed. You tried your best to make sure I will never forget, I can always pretend, but I’m trying not to remember.

Infatuation

Lyrics written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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I am never alone, I have regret to keep me company, I still feel your breath when the wind does not blow. The loss of your love, your warm embrace that wrapped it’s arms around my heart and soul, this weight of loss will only grow. I wake up with heavy eyes and a haunted mind, the rain falls hard from unforgiving skies, reminders just crashing on my window, I’m lost for words, my hands are shaking without nothing to hold, and the cold keeps shivering through my bones. There is no love left within a man standing alone with a heart that has sunk and froze. I can’t stop myself from shaking, I can’t stop my heart from aching. It’s so tough, why am I still in love? I question everyday before my tired mind lays down to sleep, every night I close my eyes, I see your face, you’re in my heart, you’re in my dreams, you are forever, haunting me. Now I see why you did the things you did, you still gave me the best, still make me feel as if there will never be anyone else again, but it’s not the same, your kiss has changed. You tried your best to make sure I will never forget, I can always pretend, but I’m trying not to remember.

The Warm Embrace of Heaven
Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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I have walked through deserted streets and crowds of ghosts and failed kings. I have bowed to empty thrones and hoped for a sign that destined failure is not all life brings. Falling to my knees as my fear is crippling, I am never alone as long as my heart beat still sings. Saviour, where have you been? Your eyes have been fixed on me, failure is all you have let me seen. I can only wait for so long, heaven knows I have tried, lend me your eyes so I can open up the skies. I can only run for so far, bring me back home to endless time, the struggle is too hard to make her realise. My hope is lost in the depths of this world, my faith is far too lost to try and find, I had it all to hold, now all I’ve had has been carried away by the tide. I needed you to understand, it was my eyes she looked into when she smiled, but her lips remain still now her heart has drowned in the tears she has cried. Please don’t let her sink any longer, part the skies and bring her your shine. Please give her a chance to live as I have died inside over and over far to many times. Let her embrace the happiness she may find, leave me alone to find the light, I’ve become so lost in both of your eyes, let me go, let her shine.
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‘I have walked through crowds of failed kings’ - Credit to Jake Sykes <3
Photo ‘Australian Sunset’ by Shanai Lee

The Warm Embrace of Heaven

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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I have walked through deserted streets and crowds of ghosts and failed kings. I have bowed to empty thrones and hoped for a sign that destined failure is not all life brings. Falling to my knees as my fear is crippling, I am never alone as long as my heart beat still sings. Saviour, where have you been? Your eyes have been fixed on me, failure is all you have let me seen. I can only wait for so long, heaven knows I have tried, lend me your eyes so I can open up the skies. I can only run for so far, bring me back home to endless time, the struggle is too hard to make her realise. My hope is lost in the depths of this world, my faith is far too lost to try and find, I had it all to hold, now all I’ve had has been carried away by the tide. I needed you to understand, it was my eyes she looked into when she smiled, but her lips remain still now her heart has drowned in the tears she has cried. Please don’t let her sink any longer, part the skies and bring her your shine. Please give her a chance to live as I have died inside over and over far to many times. Let her embrace the happiness she may find, leave me alone to find the light, I’ve become so lost in both of your eyes, let me go, let her shine.

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‘I have walked through crowds of failed kings’ - Credit to Jake Sykes <3

Photo ‘Australian Sunset’ by Shanai Lee

Desperation
Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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No I’m not happy, and no I’m not okay, I wear a fake smile to hide my shame. I keep my head down to hide my face. I sit and pretend this feeling will end, just to make it through the day. I need your shine to cover up the rain. And just like the rain we can only fall for so long, in the end we’ll fade away together, Nothing but our love will last forever. I need your hand so I don’t feel alone again, I need your heart to take away this pain. I need your love to hold me still before I fade away. I need you to understand I have changed. I need your trust so we can try again, I need you, because we are the same. In the end we’ll fade away together, nothing but our love will last forever.

Desperation

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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No I’m not happy, and no I’m not okay, I wear a fake smile to hide my shame. I keep my head down to hide my face. I sit and pretend this feeling will end, just to make it through the day. I need your shine to cover up the rain. And just like the rain we can only fall for so long, in the end we’ll fade away together, Nothing but our love will last forever. I need your hand so I don’t feel alone again, I need your heart to take away this pain. I need your love to hold me still before I fade away. I need you to understand I have changed. I need your trust so we can try again, I need you, because we are the same. In the end we’ll fade away together, nothing but our love will last forever.

Transcend 
Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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Pacing familiar roads I’ve walked down alone before, remembering heights I climbed then judging the distance of the fall. All I can see is your face staring back at me, and how you learned to say goodbye with your eyes. It’s a good thing I don’t trust your obvious betraying stare anymore. Now this struggle of loneliness is beginning to take it’s toll, it’s tough but in the end we’ll always stand alone together, but I will stand so tall. As I close my eyes it’s just as if you never even left at all. These arms cannot reach the sky without your arms around me anymore. My feet do not leave the ground now I’m too afraid to lose sight of the shore. I am to weak without the strength of your love to pick me up from the floor, There is nothing for me here anymore. You cannot hold me like you did before. I’ve had to lose it all and wait around, Just for you to know I can’t walk alone no more, but you promised you would come back to me, just like all the other promises made before. You’ll never understand my selfishness, if I can’t be happy then why should you? You’ll never understand this bitterness, constantly wishing for a second chance every 11:11, just to overcome my loneliness. Everyday is a chance to prove myself, but I’m constantly faced and met with your ignorance. I can only hope when you die alone and rot away, you’ll never understand peacefulness.

Transcend 

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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Pacing familiar roads I’ve walked down alone before, remembering heights I climbed then judging the distance of the fall. All I can see is your face staring back at me, and how you learned to say goodbye with your eyes. It’s a good thing I don’t trust your obvious betraying stare anymore. Now this struggle of loneliness is beginning to take it’s toll, it’s tough but in the end we’ll always stand alone together, but I will stand so tall. As I close my eyes it’s just as if you never even left at all. These arms cannot reach the sky without your arms around me anymore. My feet do not leave the ground now I’m too afraid to lose sight of the shore. I am to weak without the strength of your love to pick me up from the floor, There is nothing for me here anymore. You cannot hold me like you did before. I’ve had to lose it all and wait around, Just for you to know I can’t walk alone no more, but you promised you would come back to me, just like all the other promises made before. You’ll never understand my selfishness, if I can’t be happy then why should you? You’ll never understand this bitterness, constantly wishing for a second chance every 11:11, just to overcome my loneliness. Everyday is a chance to prove myself, but I’m constantly faced and met with your ignorance. I can only hope when you die alone and rot away, you’ll never understand peacefulness.

Refuse
Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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Life is finding the means to be, and what it means to me, It used to be to love and be loved, but it always meant more to me. My heart has been there before, but love doesn’t live here anymore. Your heart once beated for me, and now you are unsure. I’m sorry your heart beats for something so much more. So I’ll hide myself away behind this bone cage forever more, I will always refuse to fall.

Refuse

Written by Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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Life is finding the means to be, and what it means to me, It used to be to love and be loved, but it always meant more to me. My heart has been there before, but love doesn’t live here anymore. Your heart once beated for me, and now you are unsure. I’m sorry your heart beats for something so much more. So I’ll hide myself away behind this bone cage forever more, I will always refuse to fall.

To Have And To Hold
Lyrics written by: Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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There goes a broken man, he says he has nothing left,He said he’s scared of all his regrets, It’s hard to find a still beating heart beneath his chest,He lost his once listening love that appreciated thoughts his head had to confess,His life is a mess, he said he has nothing left.He spends his days hiding, hoping and wishing led to crying,Found his comfort sitting out in the rain, thunder and lightning,He said to have and to hold, this world is so cold. ‘I’m sorry’ has become so old, goodbye to growing old,I have nothing left, to hold.

To Have And To Hold

Lyrics written by: Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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There goes a broken man, he says he has nothing left,
He said he’s scared of all his regrets, 
It’s hard to find a still beating heart beneath his chest,
He lost his once listening love that appreciated thoughts his head had to confess,
His life is a mess, he said he has nothing left.
He spends his days hiding, hoping and wishing led to crying,
Found his comfort sitting out in the rain, thunder and lightning,
He said to have and to hold, this world is so cold. 
‘I’m sorry’ has become so old, goodbye to growing old,
I have nothing left, to hold.

Steps To Take
Lyrics written by: Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban
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As I brave the stairs, I take one step, one look back at this struggle to realise no one even cares, How can I push on with my head staring down with the emptiness that my heart bares,I couldn’t scream enough for you to listen, but this is our love not theirs.so why won’t you hear me, don’t you know it’s not okay for us to be alone,I’m lost and I’m broken, I’m sorry for your time that I’ve stolen,I’m so tired of comfort of trying alone, I’m so tired of comfort of home,where is home without your arms held tight around me?I cannot build a world of my failures, I cannot see the light covered in my guilt built shadows,I cannot walk the path ahead, when my past overbares my present.

Steps To Take

Lyrics written by: Mark ‘Mitzey’ Grabban

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As I brave the stairs, I take one step, 
one look back at this struggle to realise no one even cares, 
How can I push on with my head staring down with the emptiness that my heart bares,
I couldn’t scream enough for you to listen, but this is our love not theirs.
so why won’t you hear me, don’t you know it’s not okay for us to be alone,
I’m lost and I’m broken, I’m sorry for your time that I’ve stolen,
I’m so tired of comfort of trying alone, I’m so tired of comfort of home,
where is home without your arms held tight around me?
I cannot build a world of my failures, 
I cannot see the light covered in my guilt built shadows,
I cannot walk the path ahead, when my past overbares my present.